messy fate

i sat, and look around
i found myself sitting too comfortably, till it starts to scare me

I'm not a person who question a lot,
things are just what they are,
or at least it is that way for me since a very very long time ago

but now i do start to question,
and maybe is a good thing
maybe i can start to plan things,
and finally have control in my own life:)
and really get what i want^^

s.a.d. => smile and dance

i start to question my existence, and the purpose of it...
whether am i doing good or bad to my surroundings....
cos i think...i'm quite insignificant...that sucks!

i'm a bit confuse...and rather depressed...
can't believe after a year...this is what i will post@_@'

well...from now on....i will post what i draw in the computer
i think....it makes me happier


fine....no matter what, remember to smile:)

love hate on9

aiks, is been almost 2 months adi that i didn't update this blog, not tat i don't like to blog, and i kinda think that my life is quite interesting:P but the internet connection is really driving me crazy!
Reminder!!! if you stay high up in a building, no P1Ymax! it suxs!!! the line kept on jumping, one moment you are in , one moment you are out@$#%@*$%(!#



Kinda scary but yet cool that how internet so heavily affect our lives right now, and kinda think about it internet is only commonly use like few year back, give it around ten years!

but now, an internet break down is enough for us to go KUkU~~!


internet forks will definitely agree on this! one day without internet = no facebook, no msning, no email checking, no youtube, no google, no wiki! OMG! we got so many hours in a day that we don't know what to do with it!!!!



Seriously...i'm not exaggerating at all, didn't i speak mind of others?
i'm more to an outdoor person, the fact is i got problem staying at home more than one day without turning insane:P
last time i say that i don't wanna turn in to the trend of daily internet usage, but i found out that i really miss out a lot of stuff if i don't do so...
firstly, everybody update their information online, the fastest you can see is the change of relationship! the moment two person get together, poop! fb status changed!
i became so so so outdated because i didn't online for quite some time, what so ever happen to them or even if they brought a new car, strangers that goes online knows better than me~_~" oh god...


secondly, my friends will talk about what's interesting online, like in youtube and stuff that i am completely clueless~~~i spend most of the time trying to understand their topic in our yamca session


thirdly, don't know is been how matter times adi, i almost miss due dates or being scolded by my lecturer because i didn't check my email.(last time normally i check my mail once a week! mamma mia..never gonna do that anymore!)

ya! last time maybe i can proudly announce that i can survive without internet! now...maybe still can, but i won;t choose too~.~"
for my friends, for not being so outdated, now even for academic and business purposes.
I have started dating with my toby adi(my laptop), and now the internet connection is driving me insane!!! shit!! where's the helpline!!

may's cupcake!

18.04.2010 not very sunny day

i have a dinner date with weai, peng, jun, jee wa at 5 pm in KIM GARY
cos my bday is reaching n i have a 50%-of-the-bill birthday voucher

i was smsing them one by one to ask them whether should i fetch them anot(cos mostly i'm d driver), but all of them dun ned me to fetch
fishy~~~~~~~

3.00pm, weai's house, they were doing this


ofcos that was the end process of it

the making:



Jun concentrating



n all take turn to post with the cupcakes(before me~.~" hmp!)
weai n jun n xiao didi wit cupcake


peng with cupcake


5.30 , KIM GARY
i reach there abit late(half an hour), and as usual they are not der yet(supreme!)
n i saw wai yip n GF der sitting, i tot jz coincidentally bump in to him, apparently we are suppose to meet up..(aiks...nobody told me.....sorry yip), later on jee wa shows up

5.50 , KIM GARY
they finally reach!(jee wa n yip almost finish their food adi)
and they reli surprise me with the cupcake! altot i ajak tem for diner using d birthday voucher but i didn't tot is my birthday celebration@.@"


muahahahhaha~~~~ is mine!!!!!!

OMG! the cupcakes is so adorable!!!!


thank you all so much for d cupcake,
but most importantly for me is that u guys are der


thank you all so so much!!
i'm half of the person i am without u all!

for the most known MIA agent who's grounded on that day..heng


wish you have better luck next time, wish i have better luck too~_~"

once more, reli thx~~~~~!
this time getting extra pounds is totally worth it



hade off with cupcakes~~~~~!

blank paper with emotions

i loved this scene so much i draw it out
well i'm not really a pro in drawing
didn't study art either
but i think this is by far my most presentable way of expression...

can you feel what i feel?
when you see it?

after a wet day

我不是诗人，不会依赖月亮
也不喜欢，水沾到裤子的感觉
但当雨水打在脸上时，
眼眶会不觉的湿了。
没怎么的。。。只是一份感动

在雨中散步，是诗情画意还是脑袋有问题
我只知道，难得没带雨伞，难得有个借口
可以再体验我儿时的乐子
雨是冷冷的
路人都笑了

其实。。。笑和哭没什么差别
两个都可怜的被约束了
儿时的开怀大笑，号啕大哭
都变了轻轻地笑，静静地哭

还记得以前参加过文化营时营长说过
她喜欢看我们哭
因为我们哭得原因很单纯
年少时，我们会因为感动而哭
年长了，眼泪总是代表疲累
疲累了，想起那些辛酸，就哭了
不会为了一些难得，而感动，而飙眼泪

我爱我自己还保留那一面的我
感动了就哭，因为难得下雨了
可以淋雨了
。。。。。。。。。。。。你在骂我长不大吗？

free gift is always the best! is from the heart!!

hehehhehe~~~~!
two angels send me gift for this new year
i know is abit late to post this,
they have given me for quite some time adi
but i don't think is right if i didn't show gratitude to them
i really love the gift so much~~!

Firstly from Lee Peng(sweet piggy)
a big bottle Carbury chocolate malts powder


It really touch me cause i know you give me this gift because you know that i have problem sleeping

and chocolate can help me get some peaceful slumber
long kisses for you my sweet heart

Btw~! u look really cute in this picture^^

Next gift is from the cat(weai weai aka fellxion)
this one.....i dunno what to say but
"dude! you are really pure insane! how your brain work gal?!"



having d idea of a personalize journal is already geng
actually creating it is kinda insane!



Thank you so much~~~~! i'll try to be more punctual and goal oriented with the help of this personalize journal!!!
where to find other insane gal like you


I;m so blessed to know you all
honestly you both are the few things that i really can mention out loud in my life

ohya...lastly....
weai! sorry but i gotta do this

Notice something? XD