shy away

maybe in the beginning,
we have to hide some of our thoughts and actions
because it will provoke others
and in order to be accepted, we either fake it or hide our true feelings.

I envy people who can speak up their mind, and stand very firm for their thoughts and feelings...
I never learnt to be that way...so i am not...
but why not?

i find it hard to speak of love and hate...
will i want to spend my life in the way that, till the end of the day...no one actually remember me for who i am, but just what i compromise to be?
that is pathetic! not to mention very depressing...

I'm trying to break that invisible wall. I am who i am, and I will only be what i want to be :)
for those people for speak their mind, i salute you!
for those people who shy away, i hope you will join me:)

come come!

oh yes i like it!

this is the place i want to be at now....
the place i always want to be at
the place i want to be at forever........ok, forever is a bit too dreamy

there's no rule or formula in liking something
you just like it
it makes your heart beats
it makes your eyes sparkles
it makes your lost control of your facial muscles
look! there's a smile on your face^^

i do hope that i can admit liking someone like admitting i like this place
i find it getting more and more harder to do so...
life should be simply...
if i like you...i should tell you...
but i don't

ironically, when my lips are sealed, my ear can hear my heart beat even more clearer, this is just how it is

messy fate

i sat, and look around
i found myself sitting too comfortably, till it starts to scare me

I'm not a person who question a lot,
things are just what they are,
or at least it is that way for me since a very very long time ago

but now i do start to question,
and maybe is a good thing
maybe i can start to plan things,
and finally have control in my own life:)
and really get what i want^^

s.a.d. => smile and dance

i start to question my existence, and the purpose of it...
whether am i doing good or bad to my surroundings....
cos i think...i'm quite insignificant...that sucks!

i'm a bit confuse...and rather depressed...
can't believe after a year...this is what i will post@_@'

well...from now on....i will post what i draw in the computer
i think....it makes me happier


fine....no matter what, remember to smile:)

love hate on9

aiks, is been almost 2 months adi that i didn't update this blog, not tat i don't like to blog, and i kinda think that my life is quite interesting:P but the internet connection is really driving me crazy!
Reminder!!! if you stay high up in a building, no P1Ymax! it suxs!!! the line kept on jumping, one moment you are in , one moment you are out@$#%@*$%(!#



Kinda scary but yet cool that how internet so heavily affect our lives right now, and kinda think about it internet is only commonly use like few year back, give it around ten years!

but now, an internet break down is enough for us to go KUkU~~!


internet forks will definitely agree on this! one day without internet = no facebook, no msning, no email checking, no youtube, no google, no wiki! OMG! we got so many hours in a day that we don't know what to do with it!!!!



Seriously...i'm not exaggerating at all, didn't i speak mind of others?
i'm more to an outdoor person, the fact is i got problem staying at home more than one day without turning insane:P
last time i say that i don't wanna turn in to the trend of daily internet usage, but i found out that i really miss out a lot of stuff if i don't do so...
firstly, everybody update their information online, the fastest you can see is the change of relationship! the moment two person get together, poop! fb status changed!
i became so so so outdated because i didn't online for quite some time, what so ever happen to them or even if they brought a new car, strangers that goes online knows better than me~_~" oh god...


secondly, my friends will talk about what's interesting online, like in youtube and stuff that i am completely clueless~~~i spend most of the time trying to understand their topic in our yamca session


thirdly, don't know is been how matter times adi, i almost miss due dates or being scolded by my lecturer because i didn't check my email.(last time normally i check my mail once a week! mamma mia..never gonna do that anymore!)

ya! last time maybe i can proudly announce that i can survive without internet! now...maybe still can, but i won;t choose too~.~"
for my friends, for not being so outdated, now even for academic and business purposes.
I have started dating with my toby adi(my laptop), and now the internet connection is driving me insane!!! shit!! where's the helpline!!

may's cupcake!

18.04.2010 not very sunny day

i have a dinner date with weai, peng, jun, jee wa at 5 pm in KIM GARY
cos my bday is reaching n i have a 50%-of-the-bill birthday voucher

i was smsing them one by one to ask them whether should i fetch them anot(cos mostly i'm d driver), but all of them dun ned me to fetch
fishy~~~~~~~

3.00pm, weai's house, they were doing this


ofcos that was the end process of it

the making:



Jun concentrating



n all take turn to post with the cupcakes(before me~.~" hmp!)
weai n jun n xiao didi wit cupcake


peng with cupcake


5.30 , KIM GARY
i reach there abit late(half an hour), and as usual they are not der yet(supreme!)
n i saw wai yip n GF der sitting, i tot jz coincidentally bump in to him, apparently we are suppose to meet up..(aiks...nobody told me.....sorry yip), later on jee wa shows up

5.50 , KIM GARY
they finally reach!(jee wa n yip almost finish their food adi)
and they reli surprise me with the cupcake! altot i ajak tem for diner using d birthday voucher but i didn't tot is my birthday celebration@.@"


muahahahhaha~~~~ is mine!!!!!!

OMG! the cupcakes is so adorable!!!!


thank you all so much for d cupcake,
but most importantly for me is that u guys are der


thank you all so so much!!
i'm half of the person i am without u all!

for the most known MIA agent who's grounded on that day..heng


wish you have better luck next time, wish i have better luck too~_~"

once more, reli thx~~~~~!
this time getting extra pounds is totally worth it



hade off with cupcakes~~~~~!

blank paper with emotions

i loved this scene so much i draw it out
well i'm not really a pro in drawing
didn't study art either
but i think this is by far my most presentable way of expression...

can you feel what i feel?
when you see it?