work

recently i have been working every weekend,
and go to school on weekdays..duh..
feeling extremely tired...kinda restless
it feels like hell never ends..
and my body and mind is tearing apart



today i skip class again
thinking that i really need time to recharge
then dinner time i went burger king with my dad
and we have a small talk..



okie...d small talk r usually very heavy topics
he started saying about the stories of successful people
including the example of my third bro
saying how they love their work and give their best in what they do and stuff

kinda hit me thou..
work can be pleasurable
study can be pleasurable
funny thing is that i never think that way
and i bet quite a lot of people think that way too

focus on everything you do, you will have extra time
put your heart in everything you do, you will appreciate every second



i have been treating job and studies the wrong way..
but i think...that's kinda normal
when thinking about it
when mostly we talk to colleagues
mostly the easiest opening is to say how sucky your job today
best opening, guarantee a lot of response

but seriously, now when i realize
i can't live my life like this
if i hate my studies, i only have 2 days in a week to look forward
same applies to my future work,
if i hate my work, i only have 2 day in a week to look forward
if i love it, i have 7 days to look forward



so from now, everyday is a good day!
beary hope it will be like that!!

family potrait 2009

just a simply post.....
this family portrait is so so so precious and rare
since now my second bro is working in Dublin with his wife

date: 27 dec 2009
location: teluk gong(coconut flower garden-very nice place to eat seafood)

is funny that till now...i'm still not use to family picture without my mom...
is been almost 10 years
i think is time to face the truth, she will always be in my heart, but this is my family's portrait on 2009
don't linger in the past and regret losing this moment now in the future
i love you all...

small talk in the clinic

Yesterday i was passing by a clinic in Sunway metro, and i saw an Indian couple was having small talk with each other...it is a common thing but it actually brings back quite some of my old memories...precious ones...

When a person is concern about another person, it can be easily tell the moment you look at their eyes; and i saw it from the eyes of the Indian girl, glaring on the guy when they are talking...What's more better than knowing someone cares about you when you are weak...is priceless...i would trade anything for it

Is weird, but somehow clinic and falling sick is like a taboo in my family...We will not admit the sickness is bothering us, and we won't step in to the clinic unless we are seriously very ill...well at least i remember i always get scolding when i fall sick...but the truth is, i kinda like falling sick...because somehow...it is only then i feel like my family do care

A day, when i was in secondary 3, i was having on and off fever for about 3 plus days, and on the fourth day the fever gotten worst...i felt like the room is spinning around and i couldn't stop it...it felt like the motion sickness you have after ten rounds of roller coaster while just lying on the sofa. I couldn't stand it anymore i called my dad(that time i wasn't living with my dad anymore), and he took me to the clinic. At then before my turn to see the doc, we were having some small conversation, exchanging our current status. Although still baring with the dizziness, it strikes me that i haven't have this type of small talk for quite some time...I don't know what's he been doing and he don't even know what class i'm in or who am i hanging out with...then he started nagging me about my unhealthy sleeping pattern, diet and so on and on...but it was kinda clear that at that moment, when i look at him, he seems worried...Is like the same look like when i was very young, and he kiss me on the cheek and ask me to sleep...even when our distance is pulling us apart, there are somethings that remains the same...The anger i have for him during then was magically wipe off at that moment

Another visit to the clinic was when i'm secondary upper six, when suddenly my body have allergic reaction to god knows what, causing my eyes lid to sore till i can't really see(that's a very big thing cos my eyes is quite big!) and i can't feel my muscles. That time was very late at night and i was struggling to get to my phone, suddenly my third bro came back and was shocked to saw me kinda crawling on the floorXD first thing...it is kinda rare to see him at home, i mean very once in a blue moon type of rare...That night he magically showed up and brought me to the clinic just in time...the doctor say that the allergy couldn't have gotten worst in just hour and might cause my life(wa! reli ke doc...allergy only wor...). We also chat some a bit in the clinic, and apparently that's only thing i can remember about him that year~_~" He do mention that whenever needed, or any emergency, i can contact him right away...and honestly...i never thought of contacting him as an option during what so ever time.

Can see that the clinic trip kinda save our breaking apart relationship...those are the memories that keep me believing that even though we don't talk to each other, don't see each other; we still care for one another...we are not completely alone...well...maybe only literally~_~"

p.s. somethings you guys say that is funny i can blur off(or stun) anywhere, but the fact is this are the things that is going through my mind in that moment...to type it out use up half an hour...and this is what going on in that few seconds "stun"

The difference between http and https

Something need(less) to know: The difference between http and https

Today i was trying to enter my school's learning web page to check my new time table, and it informs that they have already changed the web address. After getting the new add, i try to load the page but the web page is not found...after i recheck the add then only found out i left a "s" behind http~_~"...lol...wat's the difference anyway...

Fact: The "S" in HTTPS indicates a secure site. If you visit a web site or web page, and look at the address in the web browser, it will likely begin with the following: http://. This means that the web site is talking to your browser using the regular 'unsecured' language. In other If you fill out a form on the web site, someone might see the information you send to that site. This is why you never ever enter your credit card number in an http web site! But if the web address begins with https://, your computer is talking to the web site in a secure code that no one can eavesdrop on. (fm wikianswer)


okie.....luckily i know it before i get a credit cardXD

why keep super glue in fridge

something need(less) to know: Why Keep Super Glue Inside the Fridge


today i was clearing the fridge with my housemate, and i found a tube of superglue inside the fridge, i was like shocked, and my housemate was shocked that i'm shocked....
ok...i don't know that keeping super glue in the fridge is such a common thing...i kena sarcastically tease by my housemate...kinda a bit humiliated i did some research online...

Why keep in the fridge: to prevent it some dying up and the cap can be easily remove the next time you use it

theory: to minimize the contact of moisture in the air because the adhesive within becomes activated by the moisture in the air, cos it to harden

why is not advice to do so: some super glue release certain chemical gas that might contaminate food inside the fridge

Ha! shouldn't leave superglue inside the fridge!! you might get food poison!!