love hate on9

aiks, is been almost 2 months adi that i didn't update this blog, not tat i don't like to blog, and i kinda think that my life is quite interesting:P but the internet connection is really driving me crazy!
Reminder!!! if you stay high up in a building, no P1Ymax! it suxs!!! the line kept on jumping, one moment you are in , one moment you are out@$#%@*$%(!#



Kinda scary but yet cool that how internet so heavily affect our lives right now, and kinda think about it internet is only commonly use like few year back, give it around ten years!

but now, an internet break down is enough for us to go KUkU~~!


internet forks will definitely agree on this! one day without internet = no facebook, no msning, no email checking, no youtube, no google, no wiki! OMG! we got so many hours in a day that we don't know what to do with it!!!!



Seriously...i'm not exaggerating at all, didn't i speak mind of others?
i'm more to an outdoor person, the fact is i got problem staying at home more than one day without turning insane:P
last time i say that i don't wanna turn in to the trend of daily internet usage, but i found out that i really miss out a lot of stuff if i don't do so...
firstly, everybody update their information online, the fastest you can see is the change of relationship! the moment two person get together, poop! fb status changed!
i became so so so outdated because i didn't online for quite some time, what so ever happen to them or even if they brought a new car, strangers that goes online knows better than me~_~" oh god...


secondly, my friends will talk about what's interesting online, like in youtube and stuff that i am completely clueless~~~i spend most of the time trying to understand their topic in our yamca session


thirdly, don't know is been how matter times adi, i almost miss due dates or being scolded by my lecturer because i didn't check my email.(last time normally i check my mail once a week! mamma mia..never gonna do that anymore!)

ya! last time maybe i can proudly announce that i can survive without internet! now...maybe still can, but i won;t choose too~.~"
for my friends, for not being so outdated, now even for academic and business purposes.
I have started dating with my toby adi(my laptop), and now the internet connection is driving me insane!!! shit!! where's the helpline!!

may's cupcake!

18.04.2010 not very sunny day

i have a dinner date with weai, peng, jun, jee wa at 5 pm in KIM GARY
cos my bday is reaching n i have a 50%-of-the-bill birthday voucher

i was smsing them one by one to ask them whether should i fetch them anot(cos mostly i'm d driver), but all of them dun ned me to fetch
fishy~~~~~~~

3.00pm, weai's house, they were doing this


ofcos that was the end process of it

the making:



Jun concentrating



n all take turn to post with the cupcakes(before me~.~" hmp!)
weai n jun n xiao didi wit cupcake


peng with cupcake


5.30 , KIM GARY
i reach there abit late(half an hour), and as usual they are not der yet(supreme!)
n i saw wai yip n GF der sitting, i tot jz coincidentally bump in to him, apparently we are suppose to meet up..(aiks...nobody told me.....sorry yip), later on jee wa shows up

5.50 , KIM GARY
they finally reach!(jee wa n yip almost finish their food adi)
and they reli surprise me with the cupcake! altot i ajak tem for diner using d birthday voucher but i didn't tot is my birthday celebration@.@"


muahahahhaha~~~~ is mine!!!!!!

OMG! the cupcakes is so adorable!!!!


thank you all so much for d cupcake,
but most importantly for me is that u guys are der


thank you all so so much!!
i'm half of the person i am without u all!

for the most known MIA agent who's grounded on that day..heng


wish you have better luck next time, wish i have better luck too~_~"

once more, reli thx~~~~~!
this time getting extra pounds is totally worth it



hade off with cupcakes~~~~~!

blank paper with emotions

i loved this scene so much i draw it out
well i'm not really a pro in drawing
didn't study art either
but i think this is by far my most presentable way of expression...

can you feel what i feel?
when you see it?

after a wet day

我不是诗人，不会依赖月亮
也不喜欢，水沾到裤子的感觉
但当雨水打在脸上时，
眼眶会不觉的湿了。
没怎么的。。。只是一份感动

在雨中散步，是诗情画意还是脑袋有问题
我只知道，难得没带雨伞，难得有个借口
可以再体验我儿时的乐子
雨是冷冷的
路人都笑了

其实。。。笑和哭没什么差别
两个都可怜的被约束了
儿时的开怀大笑，号啕大哭
都变了轻轻地笑，静静地哭

还记得以前参加过文化营时营长说过
她喜欢看我们哭
因为我们哭得原因很单纯
年少时，我们会因为感动而哭
年长了，眼泪总是代表疲累
疲累了，想起那些辛酸，就哭了
不会为了一些难得，而感动，而飙眼泪

我爱我自己还保留那一面的我
感动了就哭，因为难得下雨了
可以淋雨了
。。。。。。。。。。。。你在骂我长不大吗？

free gift is always the best! is from the heart!!

hehehhehe~~~~!
two angels send me gift for this new year
i know is abit late to post this,
they have given me for quite some time adi
but i don't think is right if i didn't show gratitude to them
i really love the gift so much~~!

Firstly from Lee Peng(sweet piggy)
a big bottle Carbury chocolate malts powder


It really touch me cause i know you give me this gift because you know that i have problem sleeping

and chocolate can help me get some peaceful slumber
long kisses for you my sweet heart

Btw~! u look really cute in this picture^^

Next gift is from the cat(weai weai aka fellxion)
this one.....i dunno what to say but
"dude! you are really pure insane! how your brain work gal?!"



having d idea of a personalize journal is already geng
actually creating it is kinda insane!



Thank you so much~~~~! i'll try to be more punctual and goal oriented with the help of this personalize journal!!!
where to find other insane gal like you


I;m so blessed to know you all
honestly you both are the few things that i really can mention out loud in my life

ohya...lastly....
weai! sorry but i gotta do this

Notice something? XD

work

recently i have been working every weekend,
and go to school on weekdays..duh..
feeling extremely tired...kinda restless
it feels like hell never ends..
and my body and mind is tearing apart



today i skip class again
thinking that i really need time to recharge
then dinner time i went burger king with my dad
and we have a small talk..



okie...d small talk r usually very heavy topics
he started saying about the stories of successful people
including the example of my third bro
saying how they love their work and give their best in what they do and stuff

kinda hit me thou..
work can be pleasurable
study can be pleasurable
funny thing is that i never think that way
and i bet quite a lot of people think that way too

focus on everything you do, you will have extra time
put your heart in everything you do, you will appreciate every second



i have been treating job and studies the wrong way..
but i think...that's kinda normal
when thinking about it
when mostly we talk to colleagues
mostly the easiest opening is to say how sucky your job today
best opening, guarantee a lot of response

but seriously, now when i realize
i can't live my life like this
if i hate my studies, i only have 2 days in a week to look forward
same applies to my future work,
if i hate my work, i only have 2 day in a week to look forward
if i love it, i have 7 days to look forward



so from now, everyday is a good day!
beary hope it will be like that!!

family potrait 2009

just a simply post.....
this family portrait is so so so precious and rare
since now my second bro is working in Dublin with his wife

date: 27 dec 2009
location: teluk gong(coconut flower garden-very nice place to eat seafood)

is funny that till now...i'm still not use to family picture without my mom...
is been almost 10 years
i think is time to face the truth, she will always be in my heart, but this is my family's portrait on 2009
don't linger in the past and regret losing this moment now in the future
i love you all...

small talk in the clinic

Yesterday i was passing by a clinic in Sunway metro, and i saw an Indian couple was having small talk with each other...it is a common thing but it actually brings back quite some of my old memories...precious ones...

When a person is concern about another person, it can be easily tell the moment you look at their eyes; and i saw it from the eyes of the Indian girl, glaring on the guy when they are talking...What's more better than knowing someone cares about you when you are weak...is priceless...i would trade anything for it

Is weird, but somehow clinic and falling sick is like a taboo in my family...We will not admit the sickness is bothering us, and we won't step in to the clinic unless we are seriously very ill...well at least i remember i always get scolding when i fall sick...but the truth is, i kinda like falling sick...because somehow...it is only then i feel like my family do care

A day, when i was in secondary 3, i was having on and off fever for about 3 plus days, and on the fourth day the fever gotten worst...i felt like the room is spinning around and i couldn't stop it...it felt like the motion sickness you have after ten rounds of roller coaster while just lying on the sofa. I couldn't stand it anymore i called my dad(that time i wasn't living with my dad anymore), and he took me to the clinic. At then before my turn to see the doc, we were having some small conversation, exchanging our current status. Although still baring with the dizziness, it strikes me that i haven't have this type of small talk for quite some time...I don't know what's he been doing and he don't even know what class i'm in or who am i hanging out with...then he started nagging me about my unhealthy sleeping pattern, diet and so on and on...but it was kinda clear that at that moment, when i look at him, he seems worried...Is like the same look like when i was very young, and he kiss me on the cheek and ask me to sleep...even when our distance is pulling us apart, there are somethings that remains the same...The anger i have for him during then was magically wipe off at that moment

Another visit to the clinic was when i'm secondary upper six, when suddenly my body have allergic reaction to god knows what, causing my eyes lid to sore till i can't really see(that's a very big thing cos my eyes is quite big!) and i can't feel my muscles. That time was very late at night and i was struggling to get to my phone, suddenly my third bro came back and was shocked to saw me kinda crawling on the floorXD first thing...it is kinda rare to see him at home, i mean very once in a blue moon type of rare...That night he magically showed up and brought me to the clinic just in time...the doctor say that the allergy couldn't have gotten worst in just hour and might cause my life(wa! reli ke doc...allergy only wor...). We also chat some a bit in the clinic, and apparently that's only thing i can remember about him that year~_~" He do mention that whenever needed, or any emergency, i can contact him right away...and honestly...i never thought of contacting him as an option during what so ever time.

Can see that the clinic trip kinda save our breaking apart relationship...those are the memories that keep me believing that even though we don't talk to each other, don't see each other; we still care for one another...we are not completely alone...well...maybe only literally~_~"

p.s. somethings you guys say that is funny i can blur off(or stun) anywhere, but the fact is this are the things that is going through my mind in that moment...to type it out use up half an hour...and this is what going on in that few seconds "stun"

The difference between http and https

Something need(less) to know: The difference between http and https

Today i was trying to enter my school's learning web page to check my new time table, and it informs that they have already changed the web address. After getting the new add, i try to load the page but the web page is not found...after i recheck the add then only found out i left a "s" behind http~_~"...lol...wat's the difference anyway...

Fact: The "S" in HTTPS indicates a secure site. If you visit a web site or web page, and look at the address in the web browser, it will likely begin with the following: http://. This means that the web site is talking to your browser using the regular 'unsecured' language. In other If you fill out a form on the web site, someone might see the information you send to that site. This is why you never ever enter your credit card number in an http web site! But if the web address begins with https://, your computer is talking to the web site in a secure code that no one can eavesdrop on. (fm wikianswer)


okie.....luckily i know it before i get a credit cardXD

why keep super glue in fridge

something need(less) to know: Why Keep Super Glue Inside the Fridge


today i was clearing the fridge with my housemate, and i found a tube of superglue inside the fridge, i was like shocked, and my housemate was shocked that i'm shocked....
ok...i don't know that keeping super glue in the fridge is such a common thing...i kena sarcastically tease by my housemate...kinda a bit humiliated i did some research online...

Why keep in the fridge: to prevent it some dying up and the cap can be easily remove the next time you use it

theory: to minimize the contact of moisture in the air because the adhesive within becomes activated by the moisture in the air, cos it to harden

why is not advice to do so: some super glue release certain chemical gas that might contaminate food inside the fridge

Ha! shouldn't leave superglue inside the fridge!! you might get food poison!!